Holiday For CNY

Wooohooooooooooooo!
Chinese New Year is coming to town. TEEHEE. Can't wait to wear new cloths instead of getting ang pao. Now can throw all books and pencil and pen away. Yay!

This Monday going to ts and sungai-wang with Yee Ling both of us sure shop till shuang seen both of us very long didn't shop together alone with each other for so damn long. Monday is the day that both of us can have each other for our own <3

Talking about having each other. I have this feeling seen my uncle passed away. I feel like those people around me slowly slowly fade away. I feel like I'm losing everyone. First was my both grandfather mom and dad side. Then my uncle which i really really really am still missing him.

Then there is this my cousin brother. Last time he is very playful tell cold jokes funny jokes bullying me my sister all those kid stuff we all like to do. (OMG my tears start to drop can't help it T.T) But now there is no more. No more jokes laughter smiling faces. He become so grow up and so serious which i am really upset and missing his smiling face. I know its hard to accept that his father had...... I can't accept it how can i aspect that he can? I really miss the old him. That's not him at all. I'm so disappointed and worry and afraid to lose all the laughter in this big family i have. Its flying away slowly. HATE IT SO MUCH. Can anyone tell me how to think positive and do positive things to make every thing alright?

Oh Oh I'm getting fat after Chinese new year. Cause there is so many delicious food my mommy cooking oh my god seriously you can't stop wanting to eat my mom's cooking. Its not like I'm saying that other people's mom cook not nice. But seriously I'm very serious. Once you try you'll know. Have to exercise more. Now sick cough cough CNY sure die. T.T